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“Mama’s here.”

I feel my daughter’s racing heartbeat slow down as she takes a big deep breath.  In.  Out.

“Mama’s here.”

I feel her silky-soft cheek bury itself into my neck.

“Mama’s here.”

Time stands still and all is quiet, except for the raindrops dancing against the windowpane.

“Mama’s here.”

Two words.  Two simple words that can dissolve panic, extinguish fear and soak up tears.

Yet as simple as they sound, their meaning runs deep.

They do not dismiss feelings, because little bean’s feelings are hers and hers alone.  They do not brush aside stinging tears, instead they catch them.  They do not hide my daughter’s pain, instead they wrap themselves around her so that she has the strength to face her distress, and the support to heal.  Two magically simple words.

“Mama’s here.”

Two words that do not look to blame or seek revenge.  They do not hunt retaliation.  Because cause can be addressed when hearts have stopped racing.

“Mama’s here.”

The calm after the storm.  A soothing and melodic mantra to ease worries and alleviate fears.

“Mama’s here.”

Because being here is what counts.  Being tuned in and emotionally available when life gets hard.  Because as much as it pains me to admit this, life will inevitably get hard for my little girl; at some point and for one reason or another.

Little bean, I promise you this; mama’s here.  Just as I have always been, I will be here with you forever.  Long after my time has come and gone, I will be here; our love story will continue.  I will be the light in your eye; the strength in your heart.

I will be here to share your laughter.  I will be here to dance with you and jump for joy.  I will be here when you are filled with rage and just want to scream.   I will be here when your heart is breaking and your soul feels crushed.  I will be here no matter what; connected and in tune.

Because mama’s here, baby girl, mama’s here.


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21 comments:

  1. Beautiful. This captures very nicely the feeling of deep and resounding love and support we mamas feel for our little ones.

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  2. I love this so much - so beautiful, it made me cry!

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  3. Beautiful, so expressive and sincere :)

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  4. Lovely words, really touching. Hard to express the love we have for our babies but this is one of the best attempts I have ever read! :) x

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    1. Thank you Kathryn, that's a huge compliment!! x

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  5. I am so glad I subscribe to your blog! I was having a 'mommy moment' and thankfully checked my email - your words have given me new perspective and new courage. Thank you for your encouraging and beautiful words!

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    1. I feel so humbled to be able to play a part in helping any mama through a mommy moment! Thank you for your kind comment <3

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  6. Just so beautiful, your words made me cry <3

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  7. I was crying early on in the post...maybe by the first 'mama's here' - I'm going through my first pregnancy now and I am in a different country, with an ocean between my mother and I...but even hearing her voice over the phone still gives me comfort as an adult and a soon-to-be-mom myself. She's always been my rock and my comfort, and even though my husband gives me that comfort and friendship and support also...no one understands their daughter like her mom. xx

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    1. Abigail, how absolutely beautiful. What a wonderful connection you have with your mom - I'm positive you will have that same bond with your little one; your comment has given me such hope and light. I'm so sorry that you and your mom are physically separated, but no amount of ocean can alter your connection. Thank you for commenting, your story is inspiring. x

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  8. Michelle Chapman18 April 2014 at 11:49

    Poetry. Simply beautiful.

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  9. Tears in my eyes. I have so many times entered a room and scooped up a crying child and said Mummy's here. I was telling my littlest only yesterday that Mummy would always be here.

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  10. I love to think of how we're all connected by this phrase - it's so simple but so powerful. Thank you for your kind words.

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  11. How sad for both my mother and me that she was incapable of this kind of love. I was a burden to her, not a blessing. Not out of any deficiency in me, but due to emotional deformity she somehow suffered; don't know what it was but it turned her into a bullying narcissist. I am glad that through reading your page I learned how a mother is SUPPOSED to feel about her child, for by showing what I missed, it helps illuminate some of the difficulties I've had in meeting certain kinds of challenges in my nearly half-century of adulthood. I would ask any mother or mother-to-be who *resents* her child's existence, to get professional help in addressing the traumas you must have experienced in your own childhood.

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